Yes I know. I dont even think anyone reads my posts anymore. Its ok though cuz this is for me. What sux for me is I did what I ALWAYS do. I let life get in MY way. I let things get me down way to easy. I have been struggling for about a month now. I didnt gain any weight last month I actually lost. It was only 2 pounds but thats ok. With the way I have been eating, I am surprised I didnt gain. The thing is that I ALWAYS LET MYSELF GIVE UP.... Ugh it makes me so freakin mad. I dont know why I do it. That is one thing I get to figure out. Why do I let food control my life? As far as I can remember it always has. I never used to care about what I ate cuz I was so active in volleyball that I never gained as much weight as I have in the last few years. Now its different, Im not as active so I get to change that. Im not trying to have a pity party or have anyone feel bad for me. DONT. I am getting this out cuz sometimes for me its better to write it down then think through my thoughts.
I found this quote that hit me pretty hard...
Success is about having, excellence is about being. Success is about having money and fame, but excellence is being the best you can be.
-- Mike Ditka
Do I want success or excellence? Of course! Hello!! I can always want to have something, but if I dont go through with it I will never get it. If I just BE my best I can have excellence. I want excellence. I dont want to just succeed in something I want to be great at it. I want to be the one motivating people. I want people to look up to me. Who is gonna do that when I can't even control myself? I would love to be that person that says how do you do it? What did you do? Can you give me any coaching? I dont want to be rich and famous, I just want people to say wow I would love to know how she got that way! I dont want people to be like me, I want them to figure it out! I would never say wow I want to be like her because that just diminishes myself and who I was meant to be.
What about this one????
The Six W's: Work will win when wishing won't.
-- Todd Blackledge
HELLO AGAIN!! I can wish to be healthy and skinny and comfortable in my own skin all I want. But if I dont work towards it, it means NOTHING!
And what about this one that I love!
When you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on.
-- Franklin D. Roosevelt
When I get to the end of my rope, I usually fall off. I get to keep this one in my head. I get to print it and hang it on my mirror so I can remember that when times get tough, I just gotta hang on and Enjoy The Ride!!!
Over and out!