The Same

Ok. So I was so excited last week on Tuesday when I was at 250.2 because that meant I was going to hit the mark of going in the 40s! But nope! Not this week. I am ok with that. I weighed in at 250.2 this morning. I am ok with that knowing what I did to myself this week as far as eating and working out. This week WILL be better. Like I have said this whole competition, NO EXCUSES. Just cuz I have a baby in my belly, doesnt mean I cannot be heathy..

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU for all your kind comments and emails. I TRULY apreciate them. The support system on here is great. I love it. Thats all for now. I am off to Target then the Gym. I have my priorities!!

I have to change my mind set....

I am thinking about making my blog name different. Obese and Pregnant. But saying that just makes me that much more angry. I know children are gifts from God and such a blessing. But for now, I am having a very hard time coping with the fact that I am pregnant. I know I dont need to be negative, but I have a lot goin on in my personal life, that makes me wonder if I'm truly ready for this. But like it or not its here.

I am not going to lie. I fell off the band wagon for the week. I still ate mostly heathy, but I only went to the gym once. I did go swimming and sledding with my daughter. But I have decided HERE AND NOW I cannot let myself go. Just cuz I have hit a bump in the road does NOT mean I have to stop being heathy. What else makes me mad is that I can't win this competition. I am a HUGE competitor and now knowing I can't win, my mindset is like why even try. I need to get out of that mode. I want to be heathy. And I know I can have it all. So why not be in the mind set that I can still lose weight, be heathy and be pregnant.....

I think one of the main reasons Im freakin out, is I am in Alaska. Away from family. My husband is deploying in June so here I am, stuck, doing it all alone... My husband was deployed when I had Madison, if it weren't for moving back home to Arizona with my parents and getting so much help from them and my sister, I dont know what I would have done... I was in Alaska last time too, but moved back with my parents. Now this time I will be up here, Alone...

VERY MIXED EMOTIONS

I should be happy that I just found out Im pregnant right. What is crazy to me is that I am 6 weeks along and I have been losing weight so good! I am determined to keep going to the gym, keep working out (until I can) and keep doing what I have been for the last 2 weeks. I am not going to lie, I was very UPSET cuz I was NOT ready for a baby. Mentally or phyiscally! This was the last thing on earth I thought I would be going through right now. I was just getting on track with weight loss and being healthy and then BAM! I dont know what the rules are for the competition but for now I am staying on this blog. Who knows maybe I will keep losing weight cuz it will be the unhealthy fat! I just DO NOT want to get over 300 pounds. I know someone that is in this comp lost weight the whole time they were pregnant, I dont remember who it was but I may need to email you! I am gonna look through all the old blogs right now. Thank you everyone for your support.

YEAH YEAH!

I do have to say that I am very excited about another 4 pound loss!! I am now 250!! I am so proud of myself for sticking through week 2. I have had a lot of things going on in my personal life that I thought were going to distract me, but I pulled through! And I am so happy with myself.

As of this challange wasn't enough, Karilynn is adding weekly challanges! haha! I know its only going to make me stronger sticking with this and that is why I am so excited! So this weeks challenge is all about WATER! I am going to steal what she said off her post that she said about water cuz it really hit me!

"Without enough water, organs can't function as efficiently, so your metabolism slows to conserve energy." -TECD page 43.  HELLO WAKE UP CALL!! I am slowing down my own organs!! These last 2 weeks I have been REALLY good about drinking my water. I have a Pink Breast Cancer Trudeau Cool! I love it!! It holds 24 oz. so I make sure I drink AT LEAST 6 of them a day which is 144 oz but sometimes I get in more! I was told to drink my ideal body weight in ounces (quite a while ago!). So mine is 155 so that is what I aim fore... But 144 I think is amazing! But something else Karilynn suggested was to keep the amount of water you want to drink on the counter. That way you see it... So that is what I am going to do except I am going to keep it in the fridge so it stays nice and cold! Or here I could keep it on the porch but then it might freeze. I also learned that drinking cold water makes you burn more calories!

Here is to a GREAT week 3!!!!!

Random Thoughts

I have been feeling blah the last few days.. I mean I am still eating well and exercising. I just need to get out of the negativity cuz I find myself going to it a lot... I am finding the positive things and fueling off of them. My daughter and I have been wearing Wii Fit Plus out.. Its such a good thing for her to use to just cuz she is active. I have a 3 day weekend so I am excited about that. I wanted to go to Zumba and Spin this week but I easily let things get in my way. But next week I am committed to going to Spin on Tues and Thurs! I LOVE SPIN!!! I haven't done it in over a year but I am ready for the but kickin! Plus why wouldnt I take it when its free! Take advantage right...

Well Happy Friday Everyone!

Week 1

I don't have much to say right now (shocking I know), but I did want to say a little bit about week 1. This week I mostly concentrated on what I eat as opposed to taking everything on at once. I quit so  many things this week that I was feeling overwhelmed with working out as well. I ate very well. I am very proud of myself. Monday (yesterday) was the first day I actually HIT the gym. I played Wii Fit Plus (WFP) last night. I am in love. I love beating my own score!! haha. I am literally my own worst competitor! I love competition and anything to light my fire is awesome! I am down 4 pounds from last week. I am so happy with that because I didnt go to the gym. Now if I coperate what I did last week with eating and my 6 days a week of gym time plus my WFP time I KNOW I will do so well with this!! The thing for me is that I start something and quit... BUT guess what everyone... NOT THIS TIME!!!

ARE YOU FREAKIN SERIOUS????

If this isn't motivation, then I dont know what is!!! I found this picture the other day! Its now hanging on my fridge. I played volleyball in college and believe it or not THIS IS ME JUMPING!!!!! HOLY COW!!!

I am SO proud of myself right now... I ALWAYS gain on the weekends. Whether its one pound or 3 I ALWAYS weigh more on Monday then I do on Friday. So this weekend I decided to change that pattern. I am sick of it.. So friday night we went over to a friends house. SHe had text me and said hey I made some homemade chicken soup loaded with veggies you can have! I was pumped. Cuz this lady is an awesome cook! Then we are getting ready to go over there and she says what kind of pizza do you like cuz we are gonna order some! WELL I told her I will not be having any but Jason loves any kind of meat on his.. So I go over there, smelling Papa Johns, and I eat a bowl of soup!!! I was SO dang proud of myself. We played WII Fit Plus and Wii Resorts and Im in love. I left SWEATING!!!

Then Saturday I slept in til 11!!! HOW NICE WAS THAT! Saturday my husband had to work so I made it a day with my daughter. We went and got some groceries came home and I made her a tent to have a tea party in. While she was occupied for about 2 hours doing that I cleaned the heck outa my house. Cleanest my house has been in awhile! Then Saturday night my friend Shawna was having a birthday party for her mom. Well Shawna is an AMAZING cook!! She seriously makes the best meals ever... I have a few friends that cook soooo much yummy stuff. But she was like we are having spaghetti and salad.. So Im like ok I can do this. So I get there and there are tons of healthy appetizers. She used whole wheat pasta, homemade her sauce and the dressing for the salad. When we were eating her husband was like Im not a fan of this wheat pasta and she said I did that for Heather!! How cool is that!!  This girl is amazing and she knows how much I have been struggling, so I LOVE that she took effort to assist me with this journey!!

Then Sunday was a TOTAL lazy day. We slept in til 11 again!! Whoo Whoo!!! Then took a nap around 2! It was great. It was so relaxing. Then we played wii and some board games.. All in all it was a great weekend... And when I woke up this morning I was 2 pounds LIGHTER then friday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I decided that Monday and Tuesdays are my early days at the gym. I get up at 530!! And go hit the gym for over an hour. Its funny cuz I go to a gym where its all the Army guys and girls doing PT (physical training) so I kinda stick out cuz Im not in the same uniform as everyone else there.. BUT I go and get lost in my music and mind my business. I discovered last week that its easier for me to work out first thing in the morning then it is in the evening. I am wore out by the end of the day and the last thing on my mind is working out!

I am off to get WII FIT PLUS!!!!!

30 day Triathlon

I am SO tired of having headaches. When do they go away?? I am now reminded as to why I always go back and forth.... I cut out everything I eat bad at once.. I just quit COLD TURKEY. And this is what I get... Pounding Headaches that make me want to throw up... I know I can overcome this. I just have to stick with it.

I have a slight obsession with weighing myeslf. Its not just once a day its like 4 or 5 times a day. So for now the scale is being put away.. I am going to weigh myself every Tuesday and THATS IT!!

So when I lived in Fairbanks, AK they did this thing at the gym. I forgot what it was called but they did an event where you complete a Triathlon in 30 days... I am going to do this again. So starting on Monday I am going to start my 30 day Triathlon! I am excited cuz I made a chart that I can mark off every lap I swam and every mile I do on bike and running!! I am deciding if I include walking miles or only do running.. I will decide by Monday and stick to it!!

I know this post is random but that is how my brain works!! Have a great day!

No more excuses!

So anyone that knows me, knows that I am a huge competitor.. I HATE to lose! I grew up playing volleyball and other sports but I remember when we would lose a game I would be FURIOUS.... I used to coach volleyball and when my team lost, it really sucked... I am always looking for ways to be a better person. So here I am rolling in on day two. Day one was good. I had a lot of stress with my daughter but I didn't let that stop me from going to the gym and eating right. My husband is in the Army. He does PT every morning. Now I am not sayin he is in the best shape ever, but he trains other soldiers for their PT. I always say honey help me out here teach me stuff. But then he pushes me and I get mad. Cuz im in pain and he wont let me stop.. Then I get mad and quit. NOT LAST NIGHT! I realized that he is gonna push me beyond my limits. He is gonna help me reach my potential. I have always been told Heather you have so much potential I just wish you could see it. I think its time for me to realize what I can do. So with that in mind I am going to allow my husband to push me. But I am also going to push MYSELF at the gym. The gym I go to (which is free thanks to my husband being military!!) has a playground right by it that my daughter can play at. So we get there and she says do everything you want mom. Meaning take your time! So why not take advantage of that!! Plus it wears her energy out and gives her some play time with other kids... I also have a "gym" more of a room down the hall in my apartment complex. It has a treadmill an eliptical and free weights. I literally have NO EXCUSES! I dont have to pay for a membership anywhere, I dont have to pay for a trainer. SO THIS IS MY TIME! NO MORE EXCUSES!!!!

First Weigh in

I am OVERWHELMED right now. I have literally been sitting here for the last 3 hours debating whether to post these photos or not... Well my mind is made up. I figure if I am going to do this I am going FULL FORCE. I am not proud of the way I look. I had been going to the gym for a month solid eating right doing great and had lost 15 pounds. Then my husbands birthday came, Christmas came, my daughters birthday came and then New Years. Between all that I had gained about 8 pounds of it all back. Why? Cuz that is what I do. I work really hard and then before I know it I just let myself go. I think oh I have done great I can have a cheat day.. That cheat day turns into two and then a week and before I know it 4 weeks go by and I am back to struggling. So I am going to set daily goals. I will post them on the side of my blog. but for now... you might not want to look.....

My Goals for this Competition

So as selfish as it sounds this next 6 months is mine.. Its my time, its my turn to take control of MY life and get healthy.... I feel that as I do this a lot of other things will fall into place... So here is a list of my goals....

1. First and foremost I want self confidence. I want to FEEL good about myself.

2. To overcome a few addictions I have. I will let you know on my progress on that.

3. I want to lose 60 pounds. That is 10 pounds a month..

4. I want to cook and eat healthy. Purge my HOUSE of all crappy things to eat and refill it with healthy things. My husband MIGHT have a fit over this!!

5. I want to be able to run a Half Marathon this summer!

6. FOLLOWING THROUGH! This should have been higher BUT a lot of people know me as a quiter! I am about to prove EVERYONE wrong and follow through with this!!!!

Look for pics tomorrow. This is going to be the hardest thing for me. NO ONE has seen me shirtless except for my husband in a VERY long time! For this I am wearing a sports bra and shorts.